Hoping that everything will be working out. Memo seems to want to work things out. Now if I can get the kids to change their attitudes. I just want our lifes to be so much more positive.

searching

I don't know where to begin and I don't know where to end. Memo didn't come home last night. We have been fighting alot lately. Its like no matter what i do he isn't happy. I feel like I am always walking on eggshells. I love him with all of my heart and after 10 years this is the hardest thing to do.
Today is Memo's birthday and I haven't heard from him at all. I erased his and his families' numbers out of my phone. I don't know what to do. I can't believe that this is the way it is going to end after being together so long. I love him, but even if he shows up I can't take him back..where was he all night.

lazy summer days

The back yard is up and ready to be used. Well, it has been used. We had a july 4 party. It was nice. Hope everyone is enjoying their vacations.

from the heart

I have been taking steps lately to better my life and it feels so weird to finally stop acting like a victim and just take control. I have to admit that every holiday it gets hard to do when you know that family is together and you aren't needed. My kids are the ones to fill that impact the most. I feel bad mostly for them. They don't seem to have anyone but me. Their dad's side gave them up with the divorce and my side really has too. Oh, I know that some live out of state, but even cards and phone calls aren't done as they should be. As for the ones that live in state the road runs both ways, but I seem to be the only one driving them! And only when I am permitted to come! My kids missed out on cousins playing together and aunts and uncles. It makes me so sad to see them hurt like this. Jonathan says mom I don't ever want to be around them, and then wants to know why noone in the family loves him.
I pray that when they get older and have kids that I never make them feel that way. I pray that I put my grandkids first and always have a open house with Sunday dinners and sleepovers at grandmas and every holiday done with family. My only regret is that with only 2 kids there is only going to be one aunt or uncle for the kids. Maybe I should have more kids.

cake corie wants to see and family photos

What a month!

Wow what a crazy month. We moved to a bigger house. I think that we are all happier now with more room to move.Lol. Asia now has a boyfriend. (how great) Jonathan is doing well, but he needs to be playing sports again.

saturday savings

no pictures having a hard time getting memory card to transfer, don't know why

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  Harris Teeter- 3 boxes brownie mix




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  1 bag of rice 2lbs




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  franks hot sauce




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  2 cANs of dole pineapples




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  2 salad finishers




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  total oop $11.26

Cvs

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  7 buddie soaps




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  2 Nyquil




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  1prohealth crest toothpast




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  3 drinks




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  total oop $9.00

Walgreens

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  3 window clings




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  2 shick quatro razors




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  2 slim packs of gum




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  1 sense and spray




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  11 cans of hunts tomatoe sauce




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  total oop $0.00




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  put $14.24 on gift card and will send in for $5.00 rebate on sauce

Not too bad for a day at least I don't think so.

congratulations

Congratulations to my cousin Tracy on her new bundel of joy!!! We love you and are very happy for you and your family!!!!

video

Dance! Dance! Dance!The kids had a great time bowling and playing in the arcade. Check out Rex and Asia competing on Dance Revolution.

video

Jonathan was so excited about his presents! Asia got a phone for her birthday and she is always on it!!

more pics

The fun continues.....

Birthdays

Lots of Birthdays around here lately. Asia has turned 16 and Jonathan is 13 now! Talk about feeling old. Grandma even had a bithday and Brittney is turning 16 this month too! Its hard to enjoy it all when you are sick, but I have been smiling through it all!! Memo is helping out a lot and the kids are having a great time. I am thinking they should have a trampoline for Easter!

lazy week

I am having a lazy week after a crazy late snow storm. I haven't been to cvs or walgreens this week and think I am having withdrawls. lol I would love to show off my 2 beautiful children.

They are growing up quickly aren't they!

reason for the blog

Hello everyone! My name is Jennifer and I am creating this blog to change my life around. I got lazy and let things go in my life and now I am ready to get things where they should be. I want to get out of debt, lose weight, save money, buy a house , and become the best wife and mother I can be. Please come join me on my journey. All comments are welcomed and I would love to make some new friends along the way!